august (and some thoughts.)
the last month things became normal again and i spent my down time pretty wisely. so, this is the big catch up. it was gonna be a microblog like that other one, but i decided to regroup it into categories for easier reading.
figures/plushes:
after looking at the prices and the possible import/shipping fees i have decided not to get the yuki subahibi figure. (i did pre order the fumo beforehand though.) combined with the zakuro figure, its just too much to justify even if i can technically afford it and had already planned to put these in the budget. atm i'm still planing on getting the zakuro figure. all of my figures have been used or less than 30 bucks, except the auska and newest hanekawa i got for around 50/60 with shipping. i've never bought a new predorder midnight release figure. so, i get to do it once and for zakuro, its an alright thing to do. a real otaku rite of passage. i just hope the pre order bonus is not as fucked up looking as yuki's. her face looks like pudding. honestly the preorder item looking alright could have made me conciser getting her too because it'd be like getting a nice wall scroll for cheap. pray they don't fuck up my girl too, i'm in the market for a bigger zakuro picture than the one on my wall. i do already have a big yuki wall scroll and another smaller poster. so, she's covered more than my favorite. i don't even have any kagami on my wall (YET) ffs!!!! now that i can buy fun shit again i did end up finding a good deal on another senjou figure.
yuki will be my first fumo. i always thought about getting one, but was waiting for the right lady because there's no reason to more than two. (if you really love the characters in question.) with fumos if you have one, you have all of them. just which hairstyle and clothes do you want. i think the smirk works well with yuki. i also (early bday present) finally purchased the madotsuki fangamer plush. she came with the knife effect i don't know what that means... still, i usually like my plushes creature shaped like cinomoroll and charizard, so this fumo and mado feel like i'm buying dolls, even though it's the same shit. its the humanoid shape that's getting me to feel this way. my mado is so peaceful looking.
getting mado was because the plushies i want still aren't on pokecentre. c'mon, this is the only modern part of the franchise i like. i wish resellers didn't jack up the prices man because i don't even really like pokecenter and kinda go back and forth on supporting the franchise. also, one time pokecenter sent my my big plushie order in a gaint beat up box. the tape was off you could carry it like a bag. i'm surprised my guys were fine. or maybe dialga and palkia fought the whole way idk. (poor sodapop bella and porygon...) it made me not want to trust PC if their shipping is that garbage on big orders.
side note 1: you know those pikachu plushies that have the trainer outfits? the dawn one looks like she's wearing a diaper on her head.
side note 2: the espion umbreon squashmallows look like your disappointed parents.
books:
i've been reading 2 monogatari novels a month. i kinda just get in the mindset "i wanna read a blog" and read usually a convo at a time. i'm enjoying the re-read more than i did on my first go around. i don't know what that says about me. i've been using the anime as jp immersion. and i think i prefer the light novel slightly. due to the funny convos being lengthened and getting to read hanekawa's thoughts.
i am also finishing the book of disquiet in-between. its a favorite now. its insane to read a book that feels similar to my thinking about life. i'm trying to get my own paperback and might have to go with the 2017 version despite wanting the zenith translation. i hate penguin random house (for being one of the enemies of the archive.) and can't find a reputable cheap used copy.
once i get done with this current monogatari i want to go back to william s burroughs. another early birthday present was getting his nova trilogy (and a few other books.) i find him to such an interesting dude and writer. i even debate on if he's the second greatest writer of all time. i don't really know what that entails. you're better than everyone else but shudo... that just doesn't get handed out.
side note 3 update: it turns out the seller shipped my books a few days ago, but ebay only decided to tell me this now. (i had even looked in the app to see if they'd shipped and missed the email. there was nothing about it this morning.) it's acting like the seller just sent out the order, but according to the tracking info it's been in transit for a couple days. so, i redacted the original comment about hoping my books will ship soon, because they've been the whole time. ^_^ never had this happen before but call me AUR, yay.
anime:
re-watched cosmos pink shock on august 18th. shudo classic. somewhat sad there wasn't another episode but also i think not having the "she gets her man back ending" works here. (and to be fair, might not even, most likley wouldn't, be the ending shudo would do.) her boyfriend probably is dead or be like "what the fuck?" if they'd met up again. besides, i have ONE shudo ending, two versions to be upset about not happening for the rest of my life. i see a lot of 2000s anime girls in micchi. we're gonna stop that thought for the sake of the run time on this thing. really, i'm the only person that knows shudo is more important to anime's than tezuka. yes, i'm being complexity serious. i'm not going to explain this shit get on my level.
i figured if i'm not getting the yuki figure maybe finally pony up some catch for some monogatari dvds and why THE FUCK IS A GOD DAMN DVDS SO FUCKING EXPENSIVENESS? I never wanna hear companies bitch about piracy ever again. I was literally trying to support the official release but they want grand for 100 or so digital cartoons on disks. nekokuro white, which is five episodes is 300 dollars. this shit came over a decade ago wtf. people will be like "they have goodies" no, they don't justify the price even with them imo. special editions are cool but why, with a 15 year old anime series, can't I just get a legal dvd copy with all the seasons on it? or even just cheap digital copies? you can't legally stream all of it too, btw. this is fucking bullshit. there's one dvd set from malaysia and i can't tell if its real or a bootleg. if i was gonna buy bootleg might as well make one myself. we'd probably get the arrrggg copies from the same place anyway.
never let those spineless corpo youtubers try to convince you the american anime licensing industry is worth any support. streaming or their little box sets. i thought about getting the jp ones, but i'd have to get a dvd player and just maybe another time i figured out other shit i wanted for my birthday.
pokeman anime thoughts:
ash-graninja is so fucking stupid in actualization. but considering the literal shit show it comes from its like the second least stupidest decision they made.
i guess heres a postiveish xy hot take for once: it's fine ash lost the league to that blue bitch. he brought his charizard ash didn't.
Pokemon tcg movie. if the T isn't shudo, the C charizard and the G gary i don't fucking want it.
computer (machine):
i couldn't get red hat 5.2 on either my T40 or T30 (i think i'd have to install windows to partition the drives?) my next attempts will be tinycore for the T30 and netbsd for the t40. i just gotta just do it, but i need a computer break rn. also i might have to get some blank cds for the T30, maybe i can usb boot on t40.
meanwhile i got endeavour os to work on an ssd. (so i can use arch btw) in my last blog i was trying to figure it out. turns out i needed to format my SSD drive to ex4 instead of fat32. i went with gnome to try out something new and i don't care for it. looks too cell phone app like for me. i also tried i3 window manager. it's fine, too. need to play with it more. might just get kde since i did like it but its not like i'm using past learning and parliaments. i don't think i'd ever daily drive arch because i don't like bleeding edge. linux mint is king, but its good to learn more. doing this has put me ahead of 90% of the population. people say i know about computers now. i feel like i know jack shit tho. and in terms of arch users, yes.
my big goal is to buy a old T440 and repair/upgrade it. i feel like shit after a few of my poor old asus' keys stopped working following a battery replacement. to be fair, i think they built the XM551 to not be upgradable. Getting into that thing is like breaking bones. and it only as 1 slot for ram. (the ram is under the motherboard, its crazy.)
i started using my the nightlight in mint and endeavour and it's A+. my eyeballs (which are sensitive to light) feel comfy at night now. i also tried window maker. good shit, even if its mac shit. i don't feel the need to daily drive it. i used windows 2000 and xp as a kid and i guess i'm fine where i started. its one of the bigger reasons why i switched to linux. (the other being i can't stand the ads crammed everywhere.)
web surfing:
not reading twitter at all, nitter was shot. its not even about the guy its just i don't think you should have to log into account to read posts from unlocked accounts. also its about how bad using that site feels. i just don't use bluesky because i read everyone's tweets in my rss reader and i can post here instead. which is way better because, you know why.
also i don't understand why the ppl that follow me on there do. (outside of my twitter mutuals who i talk to.) i post about shudo and hamtaro yet normies seem to follow? ppl using their real face and talking about their normal lives type shit? somethings deeply wrong there. i tried not to go too autistic over there and be a little mindful of what i was putting into people's feeds but still…
gaming:
pokemon rowe is good but best played on random pokemon mode. having a blast.
after playing gold 97 (visiting the nihon region) i see why they turned this into johto. it feels so all over the place.
2kki stuck at 89 percent completion, but i'm a bit relived by it in some ways.
uneven dream is caught up with and has been one of the better fan games i've played.
collective unconscious is amazing and i'm trying to get caught up before the next update.
muma rope... the feel of the game is like you're on crack being shoved from place to place. not a lot to do. also, i got some weird glitch where muma wouldn't walk normally and she could walk through walls. saved (bc i didn't realize it was still glitched) and that saved file is fucked. sometimes she'll move sideways other times she'll never face forward and i can't get up the stairs. i got it because i sat down next to a creepy sun in the rabbit hole. i think the game thought i was tyring to do ending 4 or something, idk. but that pissed me off, with my other problems. also, every world feels so short... which doesn't help the pushed feeling.
*pretend i'm kojima on twitter for the next sentence*: i played muma rope.
yume tenshi is promising, though i don’t like being attacked as i explore. (chasers are annoying for this too.)
princess maker COR/6, got all the romance endings. i think the routes to unlock the big secret aren’t in yet tho, that’s what i was going for..
undefined group:
i finished two of my major writing projects. i didn't think it'd happen so close together. now i am working on a longer story. a re-cut redoish from my 1.0 era. if i decided to put this side of my autism on display, maybe i'll explain it more. or not. i kinda like hidden artist thing. (and i will go by a different name.) but i'm sure ppl would figure out me and that art name are the same artist.
i'm tired of being pulled away from my otaku duties and other interest to appease people that barge their way into my space and time. thus, i'm becoming a "slow to responding to messages" person. because fuck having my phone on for anyone to call/text me at anytime. and fuck having to give my number out to strangers because of "work". apparently some people think that gives them license to take up your evening wanting to exchange memes back and forth to run away from loneliness. never be nice, only be polite. if this happens again with someone else i'm going to use the "please only use this number to contact me for work issues" or some excuse.
on a side note i can't stand too many "why" questions when getting to know me. it makes conversations feel unnatural. like i'm being interviewed.
FUCK GACHA, FACEBOOK MOM PLAYING FARMVILLE SHIT.
i think i'm only making a pilgrimage to comiket if i get transported 1982. so much shame in the top five. otaku are being ran out of our spaces. i refuse to consider those who spend their time playing phone slots for pngs or listening to 3D people larp as anime characters for twitch bits as otaku.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT KYLE JUSTIN WAS IN AN AVGN EPISODE AGAIN. ACTUAL EPISODE 200.
i miss hearing trains in the background of my life.
might be the only person to hold this opinion- the ADV eva dub sucks, especially the dude they got to voice shinji. a grown man trying to sound like a loony toons character. does not fit shinji at all.
also while we're on the subject, i'm sick of youtubers pretending the english dubs have importance to a discussion of an anime. they’re wasting time covering them like they're on par to the original. talk about every other dub and their voice actor's performances while you're at it. i've started skipping that shit like its an ad.
years ago i ended up not finishing the (original) eva manga and decided to finally do that and yeah, it sucks.
NGE is lighting in a bottle and everything else past EOE is fan fiction. some of its fine, some of it isn't but its not going to compare. NGE is a literal work of art, from the staff's intentions to everything that happened along the way.
i kinda thought about it we might have not gotten lugia if it wasn't for the pokemon anime not ending. i've been debating this in my head for the last six hours.
it's the next day and FOR NOW i think we still would have gotten lugia, maybe not the same movie because real ending timeline.
future blog plans:
i don't want to make blogs too long. the first two were kinda the length i want. i'll remind again, this is to replace my social media. so if there's typos or the thoughts seem incomplete, that's fine. (though if i do find typos i'll usually fix them.) also, this blog isn't just about what i've been up to.
i still want to make that monogatari small book opinion (will be updated as i continue reading) blog. i started it but decided to do this instead. i'm also thinking of explaining my personal pyramid, or how i categorize the good shit from everything else. might even make individual pages for that. i even have a cool text layout that looks like a pyramid. but this would require talking about boring and trash, so maybe i'll stick to top.
also, i'm back to learning jp and remember a bunch of it... so i'm proud of myself. atm i'm mostly focusing on listening, since i'm so bad at memorizing kanji... if i could, i'd love to try my hand at making a jp blog. (i'll make an english version of that post, of course.) but that's future stuff. this whole thing is a grab bag. though, i need to make a proper page to link all of these and have been too lazy to do so, sorry. oh, and maybe a yume game list like the monogatari one. i'd be nice to have some pages i update as i go.
i'm going back to kabukimono now, see ya.