SHEN: why am i outside? i'm not, i'm in techno hell. if you don't know, that's what this map is called. but i guess i shoulda said first i'm at this arcade called neon's apocalypta.
SHEN: cherry vanillaaaaaaaa. this place has the GOOD shit. anyway, showed up for my kid brother's birthday. he's fifteen but him and all his friends are gay so it’s not like i'm getting seen as the "hot older sister". i'm relaxing, like an adult does. to be real, i'm not as zoomer as he is. Leet speak is going down the fucking drain. he asked me "how bussin' was ma's spagett?" in public. it was cool, love that kid. so, i'm waiting for dad since laser tag ain’t my thing. once you play in the real shit ya have no will for make believe. oh, and since someone's gonna ask- yeah, mom’s dead. it was some darwin shit. she died in the most lameass normie way. my dad made up for it. can't say the chad shit he's doing unless he permanently leaves this planet for a long time.
SHEN: WHAT?
SHEN: Oh yeah, look at this carpet.
SHEN: THERE'S A GREEN SPACESHIP AND A PINK WORM, PURPLE SWIRLIES, ANNNDD BLUE TRIANGLES, LET'S GOOOOOO 9000SSS RETTTRRROOOO.
SHEN: i need to get a tripod. whatever. what was i talking about? oh yeah, the giga chad is a funny guy and i love his smile. anyway, not gonna say anything else. i don't think it’s too invasive to say i have family members, but that's all you need to know. besides, there's chad dad.
SHEN: Karen, I'm minding my own business-
KARN: My children can hear you-
SHEN: And they can probably hear you beg for sex at night. Not my problem. Go.
KARN: .....
SHEN: Besides, what kids?
KARN: SHIT.
SHEN: I'm a kid myself, you just cussed in front of me. I'm gonna tell my dad on youuuuuuuuu!!!!!
KARN: SHANE!!!!
SHEN: I made friends with her kid.
SHNE: Hi.
SHEN: I gave him the ears, mom repellent.
SHNE: I hope your dad adopts me.
SHEN: If your mom’s newest fit gets on the news I can't upload this. Anyway, what do you do for a living?
SHNE: Construction.
SHEN: Construct a cell for your mom.
SHNE: Even Texas won't let her roam free for much longer.
SHEN: What?
SHNE: .....Seriously, you have a trace on her now, Irvine.
SHEN: I'm not getting involved in anything.
SHEN: the cops got involved, i didn't. not gonna ruminate.
SHEN: this place is so cool dude. too bad most of you will never get to hang out. oh, maybe i should be a real vlogger and do an aesthetic shot on the ferris wheel. gonna smoke this first. look at that.
SHEN: autism paradise. anyway, i'm gonna rant about something to feel less alone in the world. You know why the pixel quality is gonna get worse in a second?
SHEN: that's because this is how i see the world. That's really all i want to see forever. Like, i've gotten used to it. it's comfortable. outside of special occasions with my dad i don't care if i'm ever just "around". and the older i get, the more this feeling grows. like i've experienced everything cool. my energy for being on this planet is gone. maybe i have seen better. or maybe i'm just me. just autistic and am used to everything. only the certain motherfuckers are gonna get it. like what i'm speaking here is shorthand. god damn, i can't decide what to eat there's so many options. when i'm just makin' little vlogs alone, i feel more human than right now.
SHEN: look how beautiful everything is right now. because we're alone, looking out at the world like a spirit. i guess you're not alone in a way. this copy of me is with you. also, i forgot to fix the quality.
SHEN: this place is eternal night. easy to get lost in. if my family wasn't here, there'd be no ties to reality. just a person walking around. there's also something beautiful to cities, how one can get lost in them. it's almost digital in a way. you can interact with people, but you don't have to interact with them as human brains. you just see a person and go on your way. there's still a flesh aspect when you start talking to someone, but the camera is a protection device. technically it creates a barrier between me and the subject, but more importantly, an alternate reality. one where you know about my exploits today. one where most people act differently because they're on cam. ONE WHERE I GET SUBSCRIBERS CAUSE I'M MAKING CONTENT, BITCCHHHH.
SHEN: you see this shit?
SHEN: that's where i've been. i have no idea if my brother is even here anymore. don't care. sorry this video has been kind of melancholy. it's basically a somber digital night tour till i walk outside to the real irl deal. if i was to do that.
SHEN: i grabbed some donuts. look they're as bright as the lights here. this is what matters.